I love you. I don't feel alive unless I'm being hurt, misused or abused. My greatest satisfaction now comes from dishing out pain. I try to demonstrate restraint but a life of crawling from shithole to shithole has turned me into shit. Death of my innocence has driven me to sin. Loneliness and isolation has made me mistrustful and paranoid. I only take seriously now, those who dared to dream, those who are unlike me, for I know in what they create lies salvation. Hope.
I'm back after having read your note and thought about it a bit .
I'm guessing you were hit by a passing vehicle ? . I too had a near death occurrence when I was 5 or 6, I nearly drowned as my mother just sat and watched from the beach . even after I'd made it to shore coughing and spitting up seawater she was completely unconcerned .
I'm told I'm very smart but it hasn't seemed to help me get ahead in life .
I chose the Blue Collar life after being disappointed by the upper middle class family, it's been hard but I don't regret it as everything I have I've worked for and for the most part I have a very nice orderly life .
vulgarities? vulgar sex stories? exhibitionism? you are like a little baby. watch this
I love you. I don't feel alive unless I'm being hurt, misused or abused. My greatest satisfaction now comes from dishing out pain. I try to demonstrate restraint but a life of crawling from shithole to shithole has turned me into shit. Death of my innocence has driven me to sin. Loneliness and isolation has made me mistrustful and paranoid. I only take seriously now, those who dared to dream, those who are unlike me, for I know in what they create lies salvation. Hope.
YIKES .
-Nate
Ah the classic Schrodinger’s box conundrum of mate selection:
If he is only doing it for himself, then she can just as easily be replaced by someone else (cheater).
BUT
If he only does it for her, then he could easily grow to resent her, self-sabotage and end up not doing it at all (loser).
A living relationship requires that both possibilities exist at once. A successful one requires continuous negotiation between the two.
"You don't even want to do it for me. You just want me to prove there's someone to do it for at all."
Elizabethan collar ‘ Aristophanes ‘ ouroborus ‘ dog island ‘ rectal anarchy ‘
Interesting idea here .
I just go with 'hello, I'd like to introduce my self and get to know you" .
This got my my Sweet who's been with me longer than I was married .
If a woman asked me this question I'd be up for a cuppa joe and some chat but I'd be very wary .
-Nate
"It’s hard to be a self moving individual. " ~ oh so true but not for everyone .
Those who have no difficulty with self motivation are the ones who appear to have an easy time of life no matter what .
I just now realized there's the story then your original note after .
-Nate
Okay ;
I'm back after having read your note and thought about it a bit .
I'm guessing you were hit by a passing vehicle ? . I too had a near death occurrence when I was 5 or 6, I nearly drowned as my mother just sat and watched from the beach . even after I'd made it to shore coughing and spitting up seawater she was completely unconcerned .
I'm told I'm very smart but it hasn't seemed to help me get ahead in life .
I chose the Blue Collar life after being disappointed by the upper middle class family, it's been hard but I don't regret it as everything I have I've worked for and for the most part I have a very nice orderly life .
-Nate