usually I don’t like to be one of those “go to therapy” thots…. but broski… you might seriously benefit from something variously called “inner child work” or “lovingkindness meditation”… all the stuff you’re currently on about can be good and constructive but it amounts to mental wrist-cutting-across-the-tracks when you lack a solid ground/identity to comfortably associate with. you’re clearly intelligent, I think you’re just thinking out of order.
I appreciate the thought but as mentioned in https://eggreport.substack.com/p/everyone-is-afraid-of-me-and-so-in my "inner child" is literally dead, and to put it short, I think that kind of thing is at best an attempt to (re)construct a christianity-but-without-god, to be sold as a commodity within a mercantile neolib/capital/whateveryouwannacallit framework, and I'm just the sort of guy who if I'm going to do a thing I'm gonna do it right, no half measures
lovingkindness meditation is literally just pretending to imagine that you believe in God for a bit, but in short limited bursts so you dont actually have to internalise it and change your fundamental being, but can just do it for a little bit to let off steam
i can’t properly kōanpost here and you’re not really speaking in reasoninglogic. it’s facade. this is mimery. discount tacos. the other poster trying to tell u to “center an identity” of inner-child, unconditionalloving…”give urself reasons to be”. You talk about proving something to yourself about “being an artist”. You talk between the lines about catching the demon in you in a flashlight beam of clear prose. “Posting will continue”
do you see you are looking at the thing upside down?
“I understand that Daitsu Chisho Buddha, who lived before recorded history, sat in meditation for ten cycles of existence. And still could not realize the highest truth. And still could not become emancipated. Why was this so?”
Seijo replied “you have answered your own question”.
The monk pressed, “since it was the Buddha who was meditating, why could he not fulfill Buddhahood?”
and you know I wouldn’t necessarily go to a therapist, they’ll mostly either hugbox you or slap an “incurable personality disorder” label on you. and you’ll either not progress or make a Real Big Man Suicide Attempt if you take that shit too seriously. But I’d still give this sort of thing a try. Tibetan Buddhists are frequently wacky superstitious motherfuckers, but they do have a few cool tricks for psyopping yourself out of the spike pit without damage or delusion.
A friend of mine quit drinking recently. Beautiful guy, alcoholic. He might not keep it up, and I know that, but when I think about how long he's gone without it, it makes me happy.
I'm really happy the sex blog's working for you, Randy, and I hope you can kick the smokes.
the beatings will continue until morale improves
the poasting will continue until society improves
don't worry
we back
usually I don’t like to be one of those “go to therapy” thots…. but broski… you might seriously benefit from something variously called “inner child work” or “lovingkindness meditation”… all the stuff you’re currently on about can be good and constructive but it amounts to mental wrist-cutting-across-the-tracks when you lack a solid ground/identity to comfortably associate with. you’re clearly intelligent, I think you’re just thinking out of order.
I appreciate the thought but as mentioned in https://eggreport.substack.com/p/everyone-is-afraid-of-me-and-so-in my "inner child" is literally dead, and to put it short, I think that kind of thing is at best an attempt to (re)construct a christianity-but-without-god, to be sold as a commodity within a mercantile neolib/capital/whateveryouwannacallit framework, and I'm just the sort of guy who if I'm going to do a thing I'm gonna do it right, no half measures
i think you’re wrong lol
lovingkindness meditation is literally just pretending to imagine that you believe in God for a bit, but in short limited bursts so you dont actually have to internalise it and change your fundamental being, but can just do it for a little bit to let off steam
no it’s not lol
well I wouldnt know I just guessed based on the name
mr big egg bery srious dead child
“sort of guy” nonsense. u know better.
I'm just explaining my reasoning mister lion
i can’t properly kōanpost here and you’re not really speaking in reasoninglogic. it’s facade. this is mimery. discount tacos. the other poster trying to tell u to “center an identity” of inner-child, unconditionalloving…”give urself reasons to be”. You talk about proving something to yourself about “being an artist”. You talk between the lines about catching the demon in you in a flashlight beam of clear prose. “Posting will continue”
do you see you are looking at the thing upside down?
A monk asked Seijo:
“I understand that Daitsu Chisho Buddha, who lived before recorded history, sat in meditation for ten cycles of existence. And still could not realize the highest truth. And still could not become emancipated. Why was this so?”
Seijo replied “you have answered your own question”.
The monk pressed, “since it was the Buddha who was meditating, why could he not fulfill Buddhahood?”
Seijo said, “He was not a Buddha”.
When I said "reasoning" I meant "the joke"
footnote:
this comment is a mess of deeply-depressed hypermaterialist misreadings of Foucault and Nietzsche
but everything’s gonna be alright
and you know I wouldn’t necessarily go to a therapist, they’ll mostly either hugbox you or slap an “incurable personality disorder” label on you. and you’ll either not progress or make a Real Big Man Suicide Attempt if you take that shit too seriously. But I’d still give this sort of thing a try. Tibetan Buddhists are frequently wacky superstitious motherfuckers, but they do have a few cool tricks for psyopping yourself out of the spike pit without damage or delusion.
"There's no such thing as a dragon," said Billy, and the dragon grew bigger.
A friend of mine quit drinking recently. Beautiful guy, alcoholic. He might not keep it up, and I know that, but when I think about how long he's gone without it, it makes me happy.
I'm really happy the sex blog's working for you, Randy, and I hope you can kick the smokes.
it helps being incredibly stubborn to a degree that is otherwise harmful to your quality of life
In that case he's fucked
there's other ways I think, I just only know what I know
Update: he kept it up
:)
The guru preachers shat all over the sidewalk